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lesbian sex tips

One of my favorite groups on a social media site is about lesbian sex. I’m fascinated by lesbians. I’ve never fully been a lesbian, but I’ve considered at different parts of my life– am I a lesbian? Whatever I am, I enjoy giving lesbian sex tips to strangers. A lady was feeling guilty for not

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theory

big changes

It hasn’t made sense for me to post here lately–I wouldn’t know where to begin.  I’ve been riding out some big changes with sex, sexuality, gender, relationship, and relationship values.  I don’t know what it’s ok to talk about where.  So I’ve been living it instead of writing. I adore my spouse, who I have

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unsent letter

paranoia makes sense

Dear one, I want to tell you that paranoia makes sense.  I’m not making a mistake exactly.  I’m seeing what’s there after being gaslit by culture.  The contrast between the truth and the official word is whiplashing. Like when my mom died.  It’s bad enough to lose someone I need and all that entails–her unfathomable

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theory

Miss Piggy

“It’s such a relief, not to be Miss Piggy for once,” I said. My spouse has been making obnoxious kissing sounds sometimes when they kiss me, and it makes me laugh.  I told them they sound like Miss Piggy. “Mwaaah!  Mwaaah!  Mwaaaah!” they kiss, and I giggle. “Mwaaah!” My giggle inspires them–they do it more. 

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smut theory unsent letter

get laid

Dear one, Yesterday I was telling you, I want to go down on our mutual friendly acquaintance / acquaintancely friend.  They’d mentioned that they weren’t going to the May Day event to work, but to get laid. “I’m not going to DJ unless someone is sucking my dick while I’m DJing,” they said. Surprised, I

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theory

things to do at a sex club

There are so many things to do at a sex club.  My spouse and I were out of town, visiting the city, eating Thai food for lunch with an old friend.  I mentioned that night we might go to a sex club we’d never been to before.  Actually I mentioned it by name–my friend seemed

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theory unsent letter

upset

My spouse was upset that their friend was not getting back to them and not making time to see them.  My spouse was upset to the point of losing sleep about it. “Is there something wrong with me?” my spouse asked. “No, sweetheart,” I said.  “You’re a good friend–you’re amazing.  There’s something wrong with the

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art theory

foot pix

My spouse and I had a photo shoot yesterday.  I was masturbating, and the light was right as I lay in bed on the rose pink sheet.  Taking photos was a way to help my spouse stay awake.  They had just fucked me, and I asked them to clear off the bed of blankets and

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theory

the hot springs

My spouse and I went to a hot springs, and it was my first time in a clothing optional space.  Well, the sex parties we enjoy are clothing optional.  But this was more nudity and felt different. Strangely, it felt sexier at the hot springs than the sex parties.–at least our first visit on a

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ritual

letting go ritual

I was in love with my Friend, but we are not well-suited to one another for partnership.  We have a huge age difference; that’s partly why.  They are in a different developmental stage from me, as a young adult, while I am middle aged.  So I’m planning a letting go ritual. Not to break up,

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