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things to do at a sex club

There are so many things to do at a sex club.  My spouse and I were out of town, visiting the city, eating Thai food for lunch with an old friend.  I mentioned that night we might go to a sex club we’d never been to before.  Actually I mentioned it by name–my friend seemed

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theory unsent letter

upset

My spouse was upset that their friend was not getting back to them and not making time to see them.  My spouse was upset to the point of losing sleep about it. “Is there something wrong with me?” my spouse asked. “No, sweetheart,” I said.  “You’re a good friend–you’re amazing.  There’s something wrong with the

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art theory

foot pix

My spouse and I had a photo shoot yesterday.  I was masturbating, and the light was right as I lay in bed on the rose pink sheet.  Taking photos was a way to help my spouse stay awake.  They had just fucked me, and I asked them to clear off the bed of blankets and

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the hot springs

My spouse and I went to a hot springs, and it was my first time in a clothing optional space.  Well, the sex parties we enjoy are clothing optional.  But this was more nudity and felt different. Strangely, it felt sexier at the hot springs than the sex parties.–at least our first visit on a

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ritual

letting go ritual

I was in love with my Friend, but we are not well-suited to one another for partnership.  We have a huge age difference; that’s partly why.  They are in a different developmental stage from me, as a young adult, while I am middle aged.  So I’m planning a letting go ritual. Not to break up,

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poem theory unsent letter

hurt her

Do you hurt her?  How does she like to be hurt?  Do her eyes roll back in her head? Do you feel powerful, dominating her thin, white, abled body? How does she cum for you?  How many times?  Is it hard to be quiet together? Is it ironic, to fuck her in the house where

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theory

blood

If you have a problem with blood, please scroll along.  I’m not into blood as part of pain play in a kink sense.  When I’m at a sex party, I eye the blood play station skeptically and don’t engage. But I’ve been menstruating for 37 years, so I’m used to this wet red.  My spouse

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theory

in the ass

“Did she fuck you in the ass?” I asked. I was in bed with my friend.  Well, we cuddled for so many hours–it was our main activity.  We were in a hotel room just the two of us, cuddling like bunnies.  Do friends behave that way? “Yeah,” she replied. “Oh god,” I moaned, repulsed. I

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theory

risk

I was wondering, “Why does it feels so important, when I want to have sex with someone?” Feels vitally important, looming so huge in my internal landscape.  My spouse is wonderful, and I have such good sex with him.  Why risk so much with a new person, just for some thrills? Of course I want

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theory

what we want vs what we say we want

I wrote about what happened last summer, when my spouse and I briefly lived on a small farm where the farmer witch wanted a sister wife.  Writing helped me realize again: there can be such a large gap between what we want vs what we say we want. sister wife How much truth will fit,

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