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news

My spouse read that last post about how I was hurt by a friend who we loved.  “Do you ever see his news?” I asked. “No,” my spouse said. “Maybe would you look him up?” I asked.  “I’m just curious if he’s alive.” “Ok, I can do that.” “Would you look up my ex-husband also?”

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unsent letter

feather

You put all your stuff in our shed and moved away.  You said you would come back in six months.  I txted you as you journeyed north, and I loved you so much; I almost asked you to turn around. When that volunteer palm tree was growing next to the house too long ignored, I

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smut theory

oatmilk

“That new oatmilk I bought is terrible,” my spouse said. “Why?  What’s wrong with it?” I asked.  “I had some–I thought it was fine oatmilk!” “It’s way too thick and chunky.” “Oh!  I like it!  I guess…because I’m used to swallowing thick and chunky fluids!” We laughed.  We were in the bedroom, and he was

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theory

spank

I love this image.  Maybe it’s supposed to be funny, a depiction of a switch: I am Buddha with upraised mudra hand to spank–I am the naked lady on his lap, ass already pink from impact, ready to receive the next blow.  BDSM as religion.  Valid! But something more, with the sacred Buddha.  The image

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smut theory

messy

We did the breast worshiping ritual.  Wow, I was right–it was messy.  It was also amazing, and didn’t go quite as planned. The biggest surprise is how horny we got.  Something about having the objects there, reading the words at the beginning, the depth of it.  The safety of the container?  My spouse was 100%

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theory

virtual

Oh yeah, I’ve been virtual for a long time.  Hmm, I go back–way back.  Yes, 300 baud modem for a Commodore 64.  It was old even then.  Yes, I can sing a digital handshake.  Pweeeeeee, pwuuuuu!  Pweee! Buhrong, buhrong.  Zzzzzzz. Wow, this is pretty amazing. first husband The first time I ever made out with

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ritual smut

worship of the breasts

I would like to invite my spouse to participate in this ritual worship of the breasts.  Ok, it might get messy.  Please have a soft napkin or tissues handy. My vision for this ritual is we get into a frame of mind where my breasts are simultaneously my breasts and some kind of cosmic Great

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smut

flirt

We were lying in bed naked, and I wanted to have sex.  But I’ve been moody, stressed, sad.  Sex seemed like work.  I knew once I got horny, I would be happy.  But my arousal was low.  I tried to flirt. “Is there anything you want?” I asked. “My dick wants to play with you,”

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theory

reasons to be poly

This meme is playful, the reasons to be poly, and this brain ranking.  It’s not to be taken seriously–the point is the D&D joke at the end.  But I saw my reasons are not on there. My main reason to have open relationship is resilience through diversity.  It’s a permaculture concept.  I wish for a

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theory

kind

Nurturing from cis-men can feel so rare–we’re beaming with joy, that a cis-man did something kind. I’ve been in the situation of my head hitting a wall during sex, and advocating for myself, or someone else advocating for me.  A few times, I was not able to say “stop” to move the pillow in place. 

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