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dark

Dear one, Years ago I was in love with my friend G who introduced me to the band Woven Hand.  Yesterday I got a weird craving to hear them again but didn’t know the name of the band.  I tried searching “dark country” and “dark country guitar” and finally found a playlist with a Woven

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things to do at a sex club

There are so many things to do at a sex club.  My spouse and I were out of town, visiting the city, eating Thai food for lunch with an old friend.  I mentioned that night we might go to a sex club we’d never been to before.  Actually I mentioned it by name–my friend seemed

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art theory

foot pix

My spouse and I had a photo shoot yesterday.  I was masturbating, and the light was right as I lay in bed on the rose pink sheet.  Taking photos was a way to help my spouse stay awake.  They had just fucked me, and I asked them to clear off the bed of blankets and

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smut theory

persimmon

“Do you want to taste this persimmon?” I asked my spouse. We were in the kitchen, and I was processing persimmons, a sacred food for me. “No, I don’t like persimmons,” they said. “What don’t you like?” I asked. “I don’t like the taste, and they’re too slimy,” they said.  “It’s just… negative associations.” anew

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getting fucked with my own dick

I didn’t know it was possible.  But let me tell you how my mind was blown by getting fucked with my own dick. Recently I bought a harness and dildo, which changed my life.  Suddenly my gender is affirmed, and I feel a whole new form of freedom.  Please see my previous post about what

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review theory

what I learned from having my own dick

Recently I purchased a strap, which was a big deal emotionally.  I had wanted one for 20+ years.  Also, it was an expensive purchase.  I’m sorry it costs hundreds of dollars to affirm gender.  When I tried out the strap, my mind was blown.  This post is what I learned from having my own dick.

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sex notes

These sex notes are for my spouse– things I’ve noticed, felt, and wanted lately. sex notes Dear lover, Yesterday when we had sex, I thought maybe when you were fucking me, I could have cum a second time.  The vibrator was still on my clit, and I rode out that intense orgasm which made me

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I love you, bitch

Having sex with my spouse recently, I wanted to be called bitch a lot.  My spouse was kind to me, or mean in a round about way, speaking to me as I requested.  When he said, “I love you, bitch,” that was my favorite. Yes, I want my spouse’s love.  I want my spouse’s love

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eunuchs

I’ve been thinking about eunuchs for a few months.  I briefly dated a transgender person who was Italian-American, a witch, and had undergone bottom surgery to remove their dick and get a vulva.  They related to the eunuchs in Rome long ago, some witch eunuchs. content warning: violence Well, honestly I’ve been thinking of eunuchs

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generous

My heart was broken again.  I wanted to ask you what’s not good enough about me.  What are you looking for?  Am I too kind, or am I too generous? The first time I touched you, I felt your remarkable open heart.  That instant feeling of cozy safety had never happened to me before.  My

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