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I was never young

Dear friend, I was never young.  In years, I was young; I was born as a baby and progressed as one does.  But I was never young in the sense of needs met, well-being protected, spirit cherished. What’s innocence?  I definitely wasn’t guilty.  But life didn’t unfold in a stepwise way.  Choices were denied me,

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theory unsent letter

foot massage

I have admired you for so long, since I first met you ten years ago.  How competent, energetic, and brilliant you are, with values of peace and community.  I thought about you off and on all day, knowing I’d see you in the evening.  I had a fantasy about giving you a foot massage. Seemed

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ritual theory

overwhelming pleasure

The breast play hour was amazing.  I made this art of the menu.  Yes, it was overwhelming pleasure, to feel that much breast sensation, so constantly for more than an hour.  I learned a lot, and it was healing. how it happened I was naked and clean and lay back in the bed.  The light

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theory

porn star world

Somebody friended me on instagram, and I don’t know her.  I looked through the friends she follows.  I saw a porn star I know of, on the list.  Then as I continued, I saw another inhabitant of porn star world who I know well and avoid like the plague.  He hurt me really bad, and

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smut theory

ten favorite things about sex

Sex can help in so may ways.  Here are my ten favorite things about sex. worship I have a thing for the sacred–I can’t escape need for connection, communion, bodily holiness, contact with what I would call Mother God or the universe’s love.  The deep pleasure of knowing and being known in sexual pleasure–thrumming with

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