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poker

My brother was a drug dealer.  High school I’m guessing just weed–later, he dealt all the drugs.  I’m not saying anything about the weapons.  But they can go together.  He played poker as a cover, like a decoy.  So we heard about the ups and downs of his poker career. mama I heard a cliche–a

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smut theory

date

“Can you take a shower around 11, and then we’ll have our date around 11:30?” I asked. “Sure!” my spouse said. “Yeah, so when I lick your dick, it’s not too salty from sweat.  That would be my preference.” I’m usually not a dommy person, so it was fun to make this date request.  Summer

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BDSM school

Someone on the fetlife facebook group asked–If you went to school for BDSM, what would you study? Sounds fun!  I wanna go to BDSM school!  I considered what topics stimulate me.  What do I ponder most often?  Then I answered: major in transcendence through ecstatic pain, minor in power. bdsm school I got a thrill

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to love

Oh hey.  I was thinking about the way I’m living to love, inter-depend, connect honestly, and be real with people.  I want to help form pockets of happiness, to help heal broken hearts and make better ways of relating, with results that reverberate out. Then people are irresponsible, cruel, disrespectful, selfish, totally into appearances, and

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unsent letter

genie

Again I was lying in bed, trying to sleep.  My mind was roaming around a lil bit, over the hills of the past.  I remembered that time we were pretending you were a genie.  Do you remember that? I can’t recall why we were pretending that.  Maybe because I said you looked like a genie

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unsent letter

dear Mama

Dear Mama, You are my favorite and my darling.  Oh, how I long for you, sweet dear Mama.  My heart feels weird and full, to speak to you.  How far away you seem.  Where did you go? People say you’re inside me.  But where?  My heart?  Where in my heart?  My hands?  I doubt it. 

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pain

We passed this Brazilian wax place today.  I think it was called Pretty Kitty.  I realized the name was descriptive of the service.  The idea is to use wax to rip the hair off your pussy, so it will be hairless, as this aesthetic is desirable to some people.  To the point that they will

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grape seed

My spouse bought some red grapes, and they’re seedy.  I usually like soft foods, so to have a crunchy grape seed in my mouth, within the soft, sweet grape, is disturbing to me.  So I try to chew and eat the seed and not mind it, but I can’t.  I have to spit it out.

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disabled sex

Disabled sex is valid sex.  Pretty common, too.  Hopefully you’ll have a variety of partners and learn about disabled sex, if you haven’t already. physical Probably you think a pinched nerve is not too bad a disability.  Anything that causes pain can be life-disrupting, though. A nerve is pinched in my neck, on the right

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cuddle negotiating blowjobs

“Does that hurt your neck, when I jostle you like that?” I asked him. “No, feels great,” he said.  We were lying in bed mostly naked, early morning, and he was waking up and falling back asleep over and over.  I was sometimes rocking him energetically. “My neck hurts a lot, like half the time. 

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