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news

My spouse read that last post about how I was hurt by a friend who we loved.  “Do you ever see his news?” I asked. “No,” my spouse said. “Maybe would you look him up?” I asked.  “I’m just curious if he’s alive.” “Ok, I can do that.” “Would you look up my ex-husband also?”

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smut theory

messy

We did the breast worshiping ritual.  Wow, I was right–it was messy.  It was also amazing, and didn’t go quite as planned. The biggest surprise is how horny we got.  Something about having the objects there, reading the words at the beginning, the depth of it.  The safety of the container?  My spouse was 100%

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banana

I came to bed to wake him up.  Sweetly, I cuddled on his back, my breasts naked against his naked back. “Hey, sweetie,” I said. “Ow ow ow ow ow!” he said. “Leg cramp?” I asked. He couldn’t really talk yet.  His face was contorted with pain.  He grabbed at his left calf. “Let’s get

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Mexican dressup shirt

“Hey, what if I buy you a Mexican dressup shirt, project a bunch of family stuff on to you, then have sex with you.  Does that sound fun?” I asked my spouse. He was standing in the kitchen and looked at me kind of confused.  “Uh, yeah?” he said. Usually when I say a list

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poker

My brother was a drug dealer.  High school I’m guessing just weed–later, he dealt all the drugs.  I’m not saying anything about the weapons.  But they can go together.  He played poker as a cover, like a decoy.  So we heard about the ups and downs of his poker career. mama I heard a cliche–a

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smut theory

date

“Can you take a shower around 11, and then we’ll have our date around 11:30?” I asked. “Sure!” my spouse said. “Yeah, so when I lick your dick, it’s not too salty from sweat.  That would be my preference.” I’m usually not a dommy person, so it was fun to make this date request.  Summer

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BDSM school

Someone on the fetlife facebook group asked–If you went to school for BDSM, what would you study? Sounds fun!  I wanna go to BDSM school!  I considered what topics stimulate me.  What do I ponder most often?  Then I answered: major in transcendence through ecstatic pain, minor in power. bdsm school I got a thrill

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to love

Oh hey.  I was thinking about the way I’m living to love, inter-depend, connect honestly, and be real with people.  I want to help form pockets of happiness, to help heal broken hearts and make better ways of relating, with results that reverberate out. Then people are irresponsible, cruel, disrespectful, selfish, totally into appearances, and

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unsent letter

genie

Again I was lying in bed, trying to sleep.  My mind was roaming around a lil bit, over the hills of the past.  I remembered that time we were pretending you were a genie.  Do you remember that? I can’t recall why we were pretending that.  Maybe because I said you looked like a genie

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dear Mama

Dear Mama, You are my favorite and my darling.  Oh, how I long for you, sweet dear Mama.  My heart feels weird and full, to speak to you.  How far away you seem.  Where did you go? People say you’re inside me.  But where?  My heart?  Where in my heart?  My hands?  I doubt it. 

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