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feather

You put all your stuff in our shed and moved away.  You said you would come back in six months.  I txted you as you journeyed north, and I loved you so much; I almost asked you to turn around. When that volunteer palm tree was growing next to the house too long ignored, I

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abuse

Abuse can be a train wreck, or subtle, long term harm.  Deep in a relationship, it can be hard to have perspective. What’s healthy?  What do I deserve?  What’s happy?  Is life really supposed to be like this? Wow, I was out to sea so long.  I forgot what happy could look like.  I thought

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hard no

dear Asshole Who Inspires a Hard No, You wouldn’t talk to me about difficult things when I loved you and we were close.  So why do you want to talk now? Now you push me, trying to force me to engage you.  It’s one more violence to the list of violences you’ve done while pretending

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ten dirtiest hottest words

Someone on fetlife asked–what are the dirtiest words.  I listed what I consider the dirtiest words, and hottest. no I like saying no, while my spouse fucks me, holding me down.  Or while he rubs my cunt, a finger pushed between those lips and pressing my clit.  Sometimes we just started, and it hurts because

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