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dark

Dear one, Years ago I was in love with my friend G who introduced me to the band Woven Hand.  Yesterday I got a weird craving to hear them again but didn’t know the name of the band.  I tried searching “dark country” and “dark country guitar” and finally found a playlist with a Woven

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upset

My spouse was upset that their friend was not getting back to them and not making time to see them.  My spouse was upset to the point of losing sleep about it. “Is there something wrong with me?” my spouse asked. “No, sweetheart,” I said.  “You’re a good friend–you’re amazing.  There’s something wrong with the

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art theory

foot pix

My spouse and I had a photo shoot yesterday.  I was masturbating, and the light was right as I lay in bed on the rose pink sheet.  Taking photos was a way to help my spouse stay awake.  They had just fucked me, and I asked them to clear off the bed of blankets and

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smut theory

persimmon

“Do you want to taste this persimmon?” I asked my spouse. We were in the kitchen, and I was processing persimmons, a sacred food for me. “No, I don’t like persimmons,” they said. “What don’t you like?” I asked. “I don’t like the taste, and they’re too slimy,” they said.  “It’s just… negative associations.” anew

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sex notes

These sex notes are for my spouse– things I’ve noticed, felt, and wanted lately. sex notes Dear lover, Yesterday when we had sex, I thought maybe when you were fucking me, I could have cum a second time.  The vibrator was still on my clit, and I rode out that intense orgasm which made me

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I love you, bitch

Having sex with my spouse recently, I wanted to be called bitch a lot.  My spouse was kind to me, or mean in a round about way, speaking to me as I requested.  When he said, “I love you, bitch,” that was my favorite. Yes, I want my spouse’s love.  I want my spouse’s love

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generous

My heart was broken again.  I wanted to ask you what’s not good enough about me.  What are you looking for?  Am I too kind, or am I too generous? The first time I touched you, I felt your remarkable open heart.  That instant feeling of cozy safety had never happened to me before.  My

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what she gave me

I went to pho with my dear friend.  We were sitting outside, eating delicious soup.  My friend gave me their basil; I gave them my cilantro.  Probably that’s love, that considerate sharing of resources. I thought of my not-quite-ex, the one I loved before, and what she gave me: my recent situationship.  She was the

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the erotic

Dear friend, I was thinking about something you mentioned regretting.  I’m sorry it hurts to hurt another person.  I wanted to tell you: the erotic is fueled by the tension between what’s real and what’s not real.  The tension creates an energy.  It’s ok to be wrong during sex, as long as it’s consensual. Exploring

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direct action

Dear friend, I worried about you, when you were headed to another state to do direct action and risk arrest.  Partly I’m worried because you’ve never been arrested. I’m proud of you for wanting to make a better world.  But I know that in direct actions, there’s risk with police violence.  Things happen unexpectedly.  There

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