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may

“Happy May Day,” I said to my spouse.  It was early morning, and he was going back to sleep.  “I’ll dance around your may pole later.” change Recently I fell out of love with my homegirl.  It’s an intense change.  My sexual desires and feelings for her comforted me, even while her rejection floored me

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breast

Just a breast in pretty light, and an arm.  A pretty picture for a Saturday.  Looking in the mirror in the bathroom, I liked myself. Also I wanted to show you this kink meme–so much is possible.  I felt represented. There’s a picture I put on my altar–a note card depicting a woman who looks

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feel your feelings

I wore my black Feel Your Feelings tank top to the sex party along with my black kilt.  The words of the shirt are all caps in neon colors and white, standing out boldly on the black.  The Feel Your Feelings shirt is a ringer, so there are thin white lines at the neckline and

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going down on my spouse’s ass

Going down on my spouse’s ass was more emotional than I ever could have imagined.  So much I learned, I had no idea I would learn. Previously I thought assholes were embarrassing and dirty.  I had no idea they can be tender, sweet, vulnerable places to deeply love.  It’s like I discovered a whole new

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PPE

I got some free PPE in preparation for going down on my spouse’s ass.  The deal is he might consent with a barrier.  So when he was out of town, I drove to the local HIV resources clinic and took from the free supplies in their lobby. Before that I’d called Planned Parenthood.  The lady

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in the ass

“Did she fuck you in the ass?” I asked. I was in bed with my friend.  Well, we cuddled for so many hours–it was our main activity.  We were in a hotel room just the two of us, cuddling like bunnies.  Do friends behave that way? “Yeah,” she replied. “Oh god,” I moaned, repulsed. I

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the fool

Spirit keeps telling me to throw my naked body at my spouse.  As life changes and I change, I ask Spirit: How can I care for my spouse, nurture the relationship, be kind to him, proceed with him?  I get the Fool, which in my deck is a naked white woman with flowers in her

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hot trans lady

My local closest friend is a hot trans lady.  We are very close–best friends.  We met last summer, and I see her almost every day.  She’s close to my spouse also. I want to have sex with her–this hot trans lady.  She is not planning on fucking me.  My whole body says a huge YES. 

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sex with you

“The other people I want to have sex with, it’s based on ignorance.  I don’t know what I would find if I entered that territory.  When I want to have sex with you, I know what I’m asking for.  I want you–I love you.” I was talking to my spouse–we were in bed. “Wanting to

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handing off

I’m having a repetitive fantasy about handing off my spouse.  It’s a variation on previous fantasy about the trusted friend. My spouse and the friend are finally going to start having sex, and I want to be part of the processes.  I ask if I can show our friend my spouse’s body before they have

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