When I soaked black lentils on the counter at the same time you marinated tempeh on the counter, I pretended you were my friend. I hope your meal was as delicious as mine. I dodged you in the kitchen as well as I could, no longer crying about your leaving. I’d memorized your departure date,
Tag: loss
to comfort a slut
“There’s only one way to comfort a slut,” I told my spouse. “Open up,” he said. “Yes, I need my holes stuffed,” I said. heartbroken Yes, I was heartbroken and in need of deep comfort. I tried to love a man who I found so beautiful, brilliant, and charming. The gentle way he touched me,
better than me
I thought you and your girlfriend were so much better than me. You seemed super-competent, great at being social, and got so much done. You both seemed like real grownups. Yes, you and your girlfriend were a power couple. Both so vibrant and good at life. At the time, I felt like a fuckup. It
what you lost
The manipulative email you sent me, after three years of silence, has been bothering me. I’m thinking about what you lost when you chose to treat me like shit until I finally successfully broke up with you. I can’t believe you harmed me so harshly, yet you’re still knocking on my door. It was so
I never told you what happened when the man I loved touched my back for twenty minutes, in the bed where two nights before, he had used me for my body, hurting me in a deeply harmful way. What happened was a spiritual journey I’d not planned or bought a ticket for. It was quite
“I don’t want to be the executor,” I said. It was ten years ago–my mom was making her trust. “Honey, please,” she said. I imagined myself incapacitated by grief, trying to sell the house. Being executor sounded like a horrible idea. On the best of days, it’s difficult to take care of myself. No way,
I loved a woman who was younger than me and thin. We were friends in person, and then we didn’t see each other for a long time. But we txted, sent mail to one another, and talked on the phone. We became closer over the years. I treasured her–I met her halfway, or more than
“I’m doing something I don’t like that I’m doing,” I told my spouse. I’d emerged from the bedroom and was in the kitchen, washing my hands. “Ok,” he said. “Can I tell you about it?” I asked. “Yeah. Please do,” he said. breast opinions “Well, remember when I told you long time ago, I think
to dream
The conversation didn’t go how I thought it would at all. I thought we were going to talk about relationship options, and I felt excited. Beforehand I’d imagined possibilities we could try. It was fun to dream. I was unprepared for how “no” you seemed. Wow–why have a conversation, if the answer is just that
I’ve seen a facial expression of a mammal who had a litter and is nursing numerous baby animals. Mostly a mama cat, lying on her side, with countless kittens climbing on her and going for the milk. She gave birth to them a few days ago. She’s lying there as they knead her, find a