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to come

“I want you to come,” my spouse said.  We were in bed, naked and cuddly  It was post-lunch, and I’d just asked him what he wanted. “You don’t come as much anymore,” he added. “That’s true,” I said.  I pondered my stress level, privacy, hormone changes, grief, energy level, vulnerability, desire.  “But there are things

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why I like subbing

Hello, I wanted to explain more why I like subbing.  This pic of a sub is so beautiful too–I’ve been wanting to use it for something.  Please enjoy this listicle. pleasure of subspace Subspace can be addictive.  “Please tell me I’m a good slut,” I request of my spouse.  He tells me I’m a good

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what I learned

I was looking through my old journal as I got ready to transition to a new journal.  I found this list of reasons not to be close to the man I loved.  Amazing, what I’ve learned.  “Wait, when did I write this?” I wondered. The part that surprised me the most was the quiet “he

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list

We’d had a lot of conflict–the conflict was partly about language.  It definitely was conveyed in language.  I was almost out of energy, nearing the end of my day, and wanted to figure out what was best for my spouse, so I made a list. “Ok, can I tell you some ideas I have, for

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not hearing back

I was listing in my head possible explanations for not hearing back from someone.  Here, for your list-reading pleasure. possible They never got your message. They had a family emergency, health issue, accident, or huge event. The reply they sent didn’t go through. They’re thinking about it. Tons of mixed feelings are bubbling up in

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