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unsent letter

dear Nest

dear Nest, I see what kindness you did.  Giving, caring, listening with your body.  Being there for someone.  Doing love as spiritual practice, steadfastly.  I admire how completely you gave.  It was rare and gorgeous. Then I admire how you pulled away, when it was too painful to maintain.  You tried many ways to adjust. 

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unsent letter

hard no

dear Asshole Who Inspires a Hard No, You wouldn’t talk to me about difficult things when I loved you and we were close.  So why do you want to talk now? Now you push me, trying to force me to engage you.  It’s one more violence to the list of violences you’ve done while pretending

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smut theory

boyfriend

dear boyfriend Desired, Please come visit me, here.  I want to hold you, smell you, kiss your neck.  Kiss your mouth, be equal to you.  Deeply, I want to relax into being near you and what it feels like, to be close to you in space. I want to feel your brilliant intelligence radiate onto

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theory

loving a helpful friend

I met a new person and thought he was loud and probably not someone I could get along well with.  Let’s call him D.  I met him through a friend I found harmful.  That was a strike against him! Over the years, I saw him at events.  I learned he was super helpful, affectionate, energetic,

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ritual

love letter supernova

Dear beloved Nest, You are fucking amazing, a radiant goddess who is entirely true to yourself.  You are brilliant, deeply good, and kind-heartedly love-motivated. I trust your heart 100%.  It’s obvious, you’re hurting and hating yourself tonight.  I hear your pain, as you wish you were not as you are.  It hurts to need, feel,

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theory

ten ways to love

Do you have the relationships you want?  Are you getting the love variety you need?  There are more than ten things that make me feel loved.  But I thought I would make this list as a start–ten ways to love.  Please consider loving me in these ways, if you get the chance. hugs I need

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