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unsent letter

what I wish

This is what I wish the Joker of Hearts would say. dear Nest, I miss you so much and think about you every day.  Txting you was one of my favorite parts of the day.  I miss showing you pictures too, because a good plant pic or graffiti pic, I knew you would lose your

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theory

anger

I felt angry, which is ok–any feeling is ok with me, as long as I can feel it and move through it.  Anger tells me something is wrong–usually that I’m not getting what I need, or something wrong is happening, to me or another person. It really hurt me, to be dropped by someone I

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unsent letter

weed

high I hope it’s ok to send you this art which I bought for you, a few weeks ago.  I don’t know what else to do with it.  Seems appropriate to send, in a way, since weed is what you choose instead of me. Weed symbolizes irresponsibility, to me.  I have a friend who smokes

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language

Sexual slang is important and totally respectful language.  A close friend and I talk about this.  The slang hurts her–she finds it disrespectful. So I’ve been thinking about why I love sex slang.  One reason is resisting authority and love of DIY.  Dictionaries and doctors don’t own the right to label my body parts.  I

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poem theory

what’s relationship

a previous, much shorter version of this was published in July 2020–I greatly expanded it, so here is is anew. i used to think relationships were made of words, all language.  then i decided words are just little poop pellets that relationship leaves behind–mostly worthless evidence.  then i thought relationships were soul level connection.  like

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talk dirty to me

Hey, I saw this meme to help people learn to talk dirty–and to advertise someone’s business. It made me think about language during sex; I’ve heard some people find it awkward, yeah. Sexual fantasies are what I’m made of, and my fantasies can be a lot about language, and made of language.  I fantasize about

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trauma

stalking content warning: trauma, stalking, emotional harm from a former partner, mention of rapist I was looking at old photos and saw a pic of me and my most recent ex.  When I broke up with him, he harassed me, then briefly stalked me. I’d definitely been harassed before, but it was my first time

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read to me

“Do you know the one thing I would change about you, if I could?” I asked. what I would change I was in bed, naked, and he was standing by the bed.  I was touching his tummy and chest–we smiled at each other.  “Uh, oh!  Get ready to be hurt!” I said. We laughed.  “Are

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