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dark

Dear one, Years ago I was in love with my friend G who introduced me to the band Woven Hand.  Yesterday I got a weird craving to hear them again but didn’t know the name of the band.  I tried searching “dark country” and “dark country guitar” and finally found a playlist with a Woven

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things to do at a sex club

There are so many things to do at a sex club.  My spouse and I were out of town, visiting the city, eating Thai food for lunch with an old friend.  I mentioned that night we might go to a sex club we’d never been to before.  Actually I mentioned it by name–my friend seemed

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I love you, bitch

Having sex with my spouse recently, I wanted to be called bitch a lot.  My spouse was kind to me, or mean in a round about way, speaking to me as I requested.  When he said, “I love you, bitch,” that was my favorite. Yes, I want my spouse’s love.  I want my spouse’s love

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smut theory

kinky

“You’re happy just getting your dick sucked,” I told my spouse.  “I want sex that’s way more kinky.” “What do you want?” he asked.  “I’ll do something more kinky.” desires Lately I have some specific kink desires but haven’t communicated them to my spouse.  An easy desire is to move wedges and pillows toward the

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impact implements

I have four things I love to be hit with.  These are my beloved impact implements. my spouse’s hands the flogger my spouse made of black parachute cord a colorful wooden spatula a shortened yardstick Yes, such good things. thuddy vs stingy I like a mix of thud and sting.  My spouse’s hand is my

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breast

Just a breast in pretty light, and an arm.  A pretty picture for a Saturday.  Looking in the mirror in the bathroom, I liked myself. Also I wanted to show you this kink meme–so much is possible.  I felt represented. There’s a picture I put on my altar–a note card depicting a woman who looks

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feel your feelings

I wore my black Feel Your Feelings tank top to the sex party along with my black kilt.  The words of the shirt are all caps in neon colors and white, standing out boldly on the black.  The Feel Your Feelings shirt is a ringer, so there are thin white lines at the neckline and

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PPE

I got some free PPE in preparation for going down on my spouse’s ass.  The deal is he might consent with a barrier.  So when he was out of town, I drove to the local HIV resources clinic and took from the free supplies in their lobby. Before that I’d called Planned Parenthood.  The lady

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my bitch

“I think you’ll do,” my spouse said, inspecting me as I stood with my hands tied behind my back.  “Yes, I accept you as my bitch.” We were at a vacation rental, doing some kink.  It got loud, so I’m glad we had noise privacy. That morning I had a vivid fantasy about being chosen

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bitch

This poem “bitch” is the artifact of intense longing.  Much reverence to the feelers of big feelings, truth tellers, and kinkster sexonauts. bitch I wanted you to turn your vehicle around,  take me to the forest, pin me down on the earth, and see how many times you could make me cum. on the dirt

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