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dick hole

Do you like the dick hole?  I was having sex with my spouse and impulsively put my left nipple into their dick hole.  I didn’t understand my nipple would fit.  Their dick hole is bigger than I expect. I’d had a prohibition against putting anything into the dick hole.  I’m nervous about some coconut oil,

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theory unsent letter

I was never young

Dear friend, I was never young.  In years, I was young; I was born as a baby and progressed as one does.  But I was never young in the sense of needs met, well-being protected, spirit cherished. What’s innocence?  I definitely wasn’t guilty.  But life didn’t unfold in a stepwise way.  Choices were denied me,

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art theory

foot pix

My spouse and I had a photo shoot yesterday.  I was masturbating, and the light was right as I lay in bed on the rose pink sheet.  Taking photos was a way to help my spouse stay awake.  They had just fucked me, and I asked them to clear off the bed of blankets and

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rage orgasm

I had a rage orgasm.  It was surprising and almost scared me. Emotionally I’m going through a time of change.  I’m making new choices including saying no to unbalanced, destructive relationships.  Feels great to raise my standards and work on believing I deserve more. content warning: brief mention of sexual violation Family pain and trauma

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the hot springs

My spouse and I went to a hot springs, and it was my first time in a clothing optional space.  Well, the sex parties we enjoy are clothing optional.  But this was more nudity and felt different. Strangely, it felt sexier at the hot springs than the sex parties.–at least our first visit on a

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sex with you

“The other people I want to have sex with, it’s based on ignorance.  I don’t know what I would find if I entered that territory.  When I want to have sex with you, I know what I’m asking for.  I want you–I love you.” I was talking to my spouse–we were in bed. “Wanting to

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smut

impact sounds

I recorded impact sounds and thought you might enjoy hearing them.  My spouse was hitting me on the ass, and I had emotional vocal responses. It’s been a stressful time.  I need pleasure, to relax and lose myself.  We hadn’t recorded anything in a year or so.  But we were house sitting and had the

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what do you see

“What do you see?” I asked my spouse. We were both nakedly post-sex cuddling, and I’d asked my spouse to hold my legs up.  I have decades of problems with my lymph, so sometimes I ask the lymph to drain back toward my center where it can be processed and moved out. My spouse was

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my ass

I took a better picture of my ass.  So large and fat–my hand is there too.  Usually I think my ass is flat, huge, maybe boring, and not that great.  But this pic is pretty. What do you like in a butt?  Do you like your own butt?  I like mine as a place to

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list poem unsent letter

safety into me

I wanted you to fuck the safety into me. I wanted your hands on me for a much longer time. I wanted to matter to your body. I wanted your unique intelligence up in my unique intelligence. I wanted to see how being close to you would change me. I wanted someone to collaborate with

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