content warning: fat shaming I’ve written a lot about learning to love my fat body, over the years. This is a good overview I found in my drafts folder recently and cleaned up. I hope it communicates well my life with fat and my journey of finding truth. survival I used to think fat equals
I was looking through my old journal as I got ready to transition to a new journal. I found this list of reasons not to be close to the man I loved. Amazing, what I’ve learned. “Wait, when did I write this?” I wondered. The part that surprised me the most was the quiet “he
Inviting vampires into the house is a bad idea, but they’re so damn charming, right? And you didn’t know when you invited them in, of course. The charming facilitates the harming. We should do a fang-check at the door. This is hopefully the last unsent letter to someone charming. image credit: Jack of hearts, unchanged,
The days pass, and it’s still hard to believe that you’d come here and show me for sure that you’re not concerned about my well-being. No big deal, to deceive and use me like a random stranger. I wouldn’t treat a stranger like that–I would treat no one like that. Not a dog. Not a
Abuse can be a train wreck, or subtle, long term harm. Deep in a relationship, it can be hard to have perspective. What’s healthy? What do I deserve? What’s happy? Is life really supposed to be like this? Wow, I was out to sea so long. I forgot what happy could look like. I thought
i realized the main thing i want out of sex is soul connection and validation. my spouse and i have a deep emotional connection. but other people, it’s not that i need the orgasm, conquest, stress relief, learning, or to feel powerful. it’s not athletic, expected, or entertainment. it’s if this amazing person wanted me,
stalking content warning: trauma, stalking, emotional harm from a former partner, mention of rapist I was looking at old photos and saw a pic of me and my most recent ex. When I broke up with him, he harassed me, then briefly stalked me. I’d definitely been harassed before, but it was my first time