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ritual

worship of the hands

Thank you for your willingness to participate in worship of the hands.  Do you need a drink of water, a relaxing substance, or any words to help you feel good to do this ritual? –I have what I need.  Thank you. Great.  The plan I have in mind is…  We both wash our hands at

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theory

my first real boyfriend

My first real boyfriend–yes, he was a tenor sax player and math whiz.  I always mention those things, easy to start with.  The long essay I wrote about inventing sexual ethics–I describe him briefly, there.  He was a tall white guy with blond hair. But lots of things, I never told anyone.  Who would I

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unsent letter

what I wish

This is what I wish the Joker of Hearts would say. dear Nest, I miss you so much and think about you every day.  Txting you was one of my favorite parts of the day.  I miss showing you pictures too, because a good plant pic or graffiti pic, I knew you would lose your

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theory

who is sexually attractive

If your sense of who is sexually attractive is based on advertising from when you were eight years old, it might be time to reevaluate that.  I know people who their pinnacle of sexual beauty is based on commercials they saw thirty or forty years ago. I get left out of that, since the way

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ritual

love letter supernova

Dear beloved Nest, You are fucking amazing, a radiant goddess who is entirely true to yourself.  You are brilliant, deeply good, and kind-heartedly love-motivated. I trust your heart 100%.  It’s obvious, you’re hurting and hating yourself tonight.  I hear your pain, as you wish you were not as you are.  It hurts to need, feel,

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