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difficult things

How many difficult things can you do in a day?  I like to do only one per day.  Then I can think about it, learn my lessons, roll it over in my mind, tell friends what I did and get their support and feedback.  Possibly recover so I can do more difficult things, other days.

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what family is

I was thinking about what family is, lying in bed crying, half asleep.  If I’d sucked the dick of my friend, would I have mattered to him then?  If he came down my throat, would he have loved me then? No, of course not.  But my half-asleep mind was trying to make it work.  Like

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freedom

Making my own path is necessary because there’s no path for the freedom I need.  I find myself in many situations there’s no Hallmark card for. The other day my good friend asked me, “What do you say to a friend, when her rapist dies?”  There is no greeting card for that one.  But many

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reasons to be poly

This meme is playful, the reasons to be poly, and this brain ranking.  It’s not to be taken seriously–the point is the D&D joke at the end.  But I saw my reasons are not on there. My main reason to have open relationship is resilience through diversity.  It’s a permaculture concept.  I wish for a

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freedom and self-love

My friend sent me a link to this song that made him think of me.  It summarizes ideas that I believe really hard about freedom and self-love. I love my body, and I enjoy loving my body.  Definitely I want to talk about that, on this blog and everywhere, and laugh publicly at the oppression

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kindness

dear Friend, I keep thinking I’m done with the part of our relationship where I’m in love with you.  Things feel more casual.  I relax a deeper layer. “Ah, how nice–things are going in a way that makes more sense,” I tell myself.  “I’m glad things are going to get easier.” desire Then I feel

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community

“What’s a community, if it’s based on lies?” I asked.  “A community of convenience.  Gentlemen’s agreement.  Fuckery–bullshit.  A charade.  A waste of time.” I was having a lot of feelings about communication issues in the community that I live in.  Some friction had occurred, when I said something true but snarky in a meeting. I

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free

I don’t think your feelings for anyone are wrong.  I never feel ashamed of you.  I think you can feel however you feel about anyone in the world.  You are free, and no one can own your heart.   Maybe behavior could be more of a thing to limit, if you choose to.  But you know,

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