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dark

Dear one, Years ago I was in love with my friend G who introduced me to the band Woven Hand.  Yesterday I got a weird craving to hear them again but didn’t know the name of the band.  I tried searching “dark country” and “dark country guitar” and finally found a playlist with a Woven

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things to do at a sex club

There are so many things to do at a sex club.  My spouse and I were out of town, visiting the city, eating Thai food for lunch with an old friend.  I mentioned that night we might go to a sex club we’d never been to before.  Actually I mentioned it by name–my friend seemed

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acting out

The neighbor getting naked wasn’t wrong in and of itself.  I’m fine with people, including naked people.  Naked bodies are no problem.  The problem was she was naked as a way of acting out.  Definitely there was a desire for attention and disruption. And it worked–she disturbed kids, parents, and other adults.  It was possibly

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sex notes

These sex notes are for my spouse– things I’ve noticed, felt, and wanted lately. sex notes Dear lover, Yesterday when we had sex, I thought maybe when you were fucking me, I could have cum a second time.  The vibrator was still on my clit, and I rode out that intense orgasm which made me

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eunuchs

I’ve been thinking about eunuchs for a few months.  I briefly dated a transgender person who was Italian-American, a witch, and had undergone bottom surgery to remove their dick and get a vulva.  They related to the eunuchs in Rome long ago, some witch eunuchs. content warning: violence Well, honestly I’ve been thinking of eunuchs

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smut theory

long orgasm

I have a new sound recording up.  I was masturbating as my spouse went down on my breasts–it’s nine minutes.  My long orgasm is strange and good. https://freesound.org/people/nestvalorfixer/sounds/751155/ I listened to the recording this afternoon while I was masturbating in bed alone.  I hadn’t heard it in a while.  The recording kept me company and

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rage orgasm

I had a rage orgasm.  It was surprising and almost scared me. Emotionally I’m going through a time of change.  I’m making new choices including saying no to unbalanced, destructive relationships.  Feels great to raise my standards and work on believing I deserve more. content warning: brief mention of sexual violation Family pain and trauma

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direct action

Dear friend, I worried about you, when you were headed to another state to do direct action and risk arrest.  Partly I’m worried because you’ve never been arrested. I’m proud of you for wanting to make a better world.  But I know that in direct actions, there’s risk with police violence.  Things happen unexpectedly.  There

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the hot springs

My spouse and I went to a hot springs, and it was my first time in a clothing optional space.  Well, the sex parties we enjoy are clothing optional.  But this was more nudity and felt different. Strangely, it felt sexier at the hot springs than the sex parties.–at least our first visit on a

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dear friend

Dear friend, I was thinking of that funny moment when I mentioned how in a previous community, my spouse had a reputation for undressing lickety split.  Yes, at the moment of taking off clothes, he had it down to just a few seconds. You seemed surprised.  You don’t know the whole story: a personal growth

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