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impact implements

I have four things I love to be hit with.  These are my beloved impact implements. my spouse’s hands the flogger my spouse made of black parachute cord a colorful wooden spatula a shortened yardstick Yes, such good things. thuddy vs stingy I like a mix of thud and sting.  My spouse’s hand is my

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gay friend

Hello, this is part two of the chastity belt post.  I wanted to tell you about a gay friend I have, as related to the chastity belt thing. chastity belt My chastity belt friend who wanted me to hold a key was queer.  He had been pretending to be straight for a long time, so

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dissociating

I realized that wanting someone sexually is my favorite way to dissociate.  Dissociating is a way to take a break from reality.  Mostly because of anxiety and overwhelm, I need those breaks a lot.  Dissociating is one of my favorite coping strategies.  I talk about it in this post about driving. how it feels This

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summer art school

Summer art school was a great learning experience.  I had a lot of firsts there, and I want to tell you. Queer stuff, sexuality, law breaking, silliness.  I was 16 years old, curious, and wild.  Here are ten things I did for the first time at summer art school. 1. smoking Smoking tobacco cigarettes was

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poker

My brother was a drug dealer.  High school I’m guessing just weed–later, he dealt all the drugs.  I’m not saying anything about the weapons.  But they can go together.  He played poker as a cover, like a decoy.  So we heard about the ups and downs of his poker career. mama I heard a cliche–a

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weed

high I hope it’s ok to send you this art which I bought for you, a few weeks ago.  I don’t know what else to do with it.  Seems appropriate to send, in a way, since weed is what you choose instead of me. Weed symbolizes irresponsibility, to me.  I have a friend who smokes

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