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to pee

“What could we do, to make it easier for you to pee?” I asked my spouse. It was early morning, and we were talking about health.  I was proud of myself.  We were on a road trip, and I kept drinking water even though it meant lots of stops to pee. “Long time ago, I

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more sex

“I want you to tell me it’s after lunch, so it’s time for me to suck your dick.  Whether I want it or not,” I said.  More sex helps me.  “Would you do that for me?” “Yes,” my spouse said “Would you like that?” I asked. “Yes,” my spouse said.  “I want to shove my

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mama cat

I’ve seen a facial expression of a mammal who had a litter and is nursing numerous baby animals.  Mostly a mama cat, lying on her side, with countless kittens climbing on her and going for the milk.  She gave birth to them a few days ago.  She’s lying there as they knead her, find a

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socks

“Look at my socks, and then how my shirt matches my socks.  What do you think?” He looked at my socks, and I felt appreciated. “It’s great,” my spouse said. “Do you want to mate with me now?” I asked.  “Have I proven I’m good enough for you?” “Yes,” my spouse said. “Yay!” I said,

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sex toy

“Hey, look at this. It’s a sex toy made for disabled people,” I told my spouse. He seemed interested and looked at my screen as we hugged.  Long ago he worked as a personal care attendant.  He’s disabled–I’m disabled.  His ex is disabled, and lots of our friends, in various ways. The sex toy is

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bonding cues

My intro on facebook lately is “processing bonding cues creatively while Rome burns.”  It came about when I was looking at something about autism online, months ago.  The term “bonding cues” really stood out to me. Yes, the things people do to indicate closeness or distance, privately and in a group–thrilling.  I love bonding cues. 

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what I learned

I was looking through my old journal as I got ready to transition to a new journal.  I found this list of reasons not to be close to the man I loved.  Amazing, what I’ve learned.  “Wait, when did I write this?” I wondered. The part that surprised me the most was the quiet “he

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fat sex

I saw this meme and loved it.  Fat sex is my life.  Disabled sex is my life also.  I might be too fat to sit on anyone’s lap like this.  But I relate to the lovers on the couch. Many people like to see themselves accurately portrayed in art and media, and I imagine how

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boyfriend

“Will you always be my boyfriend?” “Yes,” my spouse said. “Will you always be my girlfriend?” “Yes,” my spouse said. “Will you always be my nonbinaryfriend?” “Yes,” my spouse said. “Will you always be my spouse?” “Yes,” my spouse said. “Yay!!!” I said, flailing my arms around.  “I win!” My spouse was standing beside our

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last night

“You fucked me so good last night,” I told my spouse.  “Is it ok if I look at your chonies and think about your dick?  Because that’s what I’m doing.” “Yeah,” he said.  He was standing in the kitchen, wearing no pants, still waking up. “I want more of that,” I said.  He came to

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