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theory

ashamed

I felt ashamed that no one wants to date me.  I made an advert on Lex and felt sad when no one responded, other than spammers.  Why the shame, I’m not sure. Rejection is embarrassing–I do have playground trauma, being perpetually chosen last for the baseball team.  Or old old danger from thousands of years

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review

vibrator

I got a new vibrator and wanted to show you.  It cost a hundred dollars at the local sex toy shop.  That was a usual price there. My old vibrator was too small.  I like its cuteness and dark blueness. The way it has two separate vibrating sides is cool. But my body needs a

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ritual

banishment ritual

This is plans for a banishment ritual.  I loved some men, over the years. Devotion is a skill. I gave a lot, sometimes more than was best for me. Takes a while to learn the sweet spot. I have social differences, pertaining to autism. And I lacked healthy relationship role models as a kid and

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