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theory unsent letter

dear friend

Dear friend, I was thinking of that funny moment when I mentioned how in a previous community, my spouse had a reputation for undressing lickety split.  Yes, at the moment of taking off clothes, he had it down to just a few seconds. You seemed surprised.  You don’t know the whole story: a personal growth

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like me

“What can I do so you you’ll like me forever?” I asked my spouse.  We were lying in bed, naked and cuddling post-lunch. “Let me suck on your titty,” he said. “Oh, ok,” I said.  “So you’ll suck on my titty and think about it?  What I can do so you’ll always like me?” “Yeah,”

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smut theory

back

“Your back is so beautiful,” I said.  It was 5:30 am, and I’d been up for a few hours already.  I came back to bed to wake up my spouse. I’d taken off my shirt, and I cuddled close to him.  I was cold, and he was so warm, snuggled in bed. “Pretty, pretty pumpkin,”

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who is sexually attractive

If your sense of who is sexually attractive is based on advertising from when you were eight years old, it might be time to reevaluate that.  I know people who their pinnacle of sexual beauty is based on commercials they saw thirty or forty years ago. I get left out of that, since the way

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theory

aesthetics II

Here’s more about aesthetics because I figured out what I was trying to say last time! pretty “Do you think I’m pretty?” I asked my spouse.  It was idle pre-bed chatter. “Yes,” he said. “Do you think I’m…hella pretty?” “Yes,” he said. “You seem to think I’m pretty…when I’m sucking your dick,” I said. “Yes,”

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aesthetics

Hey, aesthetics is a fancy word about what’s beautiful and pretty and appealing. There’s a whole area of philosophy, about aesthetics.  Then there are workers who help people look more beautiful, and they can be hairdressers, nail experts, makeup artists, aestheticians. What about me?  I’m a neurodivergent fat woman, and I was poor almost my

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how to talk to someone about their body

One time my good friend was at a party where people were not wearing shirts.  She was having a conversation with someone who awkwardly said, “I think your breasts are beautiful, by the way.” My friend reported this to me years later, laughing.  The situation had been novel, for her.  It was funny to consider

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