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quality of orgasms

Hey, I was thinking about quality of orgasms.  I was thinking how orgasms can feel different ways.  I think I’ve only come from my clit.  Some vaginal, g-spot deeper orgasms I heard of, but I don’t think I ever experienced one. I want to try having a nipple orgasm–that hasn’t happened yet.  Some amazing sensations

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phone cuddle

I made a meme about phone cuddle.  I’ve been thinking about phone cuddle for a long time. The above meme was partly inspired by this simple meme I saw on a friend’s facebook. I need a lot of options.  Phone sex, phone cuddle, letter sex, email cuddle, flirtation.  Chosen family, moving fast or slow, intentional

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unsent letter

hard no

dear Asshole Who Inspires a Hard No, You wouldn’t talk to me about difficult things when I loved you and we were close.  So why do you want to talk now? Now you push me, trying to force me to engage you.  It’s one more violence to the list of violences you’ve done while pretending

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theory

dick

Dicks have always seemed weirdly vulnerable to me.  Balls too.  How could it make sense, to have something so important hanging out so awkwardly.  A dick undeniably there, and balls, so tender. I heard balls need to keep cool, for sperm to be viable.  So, uh, I guess so. It’s weird because dicks can do

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trauma

stalking content warning: trauma, stalking, emotional harm from a former partner, mention of rapist I was looking at old photos and saw a pic of me and my most recent ex.  When I broke up with him, he harassed me, then briefly stalked me. I’d definitely been harassed before, but it was my first time

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cunt magic

A cunt is an amazing organ.  I love cunt magic.  I was taught mine was shameful–that cunts are an obscene embarrassment.   But then I grew up and could make choices about my own body and change how I feel about it. envaginate I’ve been thinking about that word envaginate for a long time.  As in,

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sex toys

Sex toys are not sex.  They’re physical objects that can facilitate sexual experiences, please, stimulate, stoke the imagination.  They can also harm.  Often they’re purchased, but I made a dildo out of wood, which is cool. vibrators Those big Magic Wand ones you plug into the wall–I had one long ago, used it only once. 

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smut theory

masturbation

My dear friend txted me that she rubbed one out in about thirty seconds.  I told her I wished to be involved.  She said I was involved– she told me about her masturbation.  I felt loved and special. “I’ve never come that fast in my life,” I told her.  My cunt is good at overwhelmingly

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healing sexual trauma

what I’m doing I enjoy healing sexual trauma through love and BDSM.  This blog documents love, sex, bright ideas, and BDSM enactment of past sexual trauma.  Also there’s some smut in the form of erotica.  And a ritual or two.  The breast pics could be noted as well. I started this blog to have a

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smut

cabin

There’s some reason I have to leave town.  Our good friend has left her husband, finally. She wants to have sex with you.  I don’t blame her.  She’s seen your sexiness and kindness to me, over the years.  She’s masturbated, thinking of you, and realized her approach to men and relationships is entirely wrong. You

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