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friend

Dear friend, I keep pulling the tower and death card, when I ask Spirit about you–it’s been months.  Spirit tells me our relationship needs big change. Earlier on I used to get the three of swords, five of cups.  Spirit told me to walk away, and I didn’t have the guts.  When I asked the

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hurt

This letter about relationship pain comes from a hurt place I don’t know how to talk about.  This letter is an unsent attempt to sort it out. Dear friend, I’ve been thinking about me and you.  I remember you mentioned most of your partners have been mean to you, or a mixed situation. My spouse

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when Michael dies

This poem “when Michael dies” is about my close friend who I never met in person yet.  I ask for her post-husband visit so we can be animals together, and I would like to comfort her in her grief. when Michael dies When Michael dies, freedom will fly into your life like a wild wind,

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sex with our housemate

When you left here, it was messy and painful.  Your choice to have sex with our housemate was part of that.  I think you anticipated a fun, hot, lighthearted encounter.  Maybe no one would know.  Probably you had zero idea what the consequences would be. I’m sorry you made that choice.  I hope sex with

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powerful

Dear housemate, I was surprised and thrown off balance when you told me at dinner, announced in front of everyone, that the weird thing about me is how I don’t recognize how powerful I am.  Wow.  It was a vulnerable, extra-honest thing to say. Not that you were wrong.  But I’m trying to figure out

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runaway

You know that kid you met on the train and wanted to save?  She was a runaway.  The secret was she had escaped from sex work. You wanted to help her, but how?  It was a bad situation.  How much was she playing you? I was trying to understand the severity / immediacy of the

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favorite times with you

As you prepare to leave, I prepare to live without you.  You’ll always be in my heart, but maybe never again in my day-to-day life.  I’m pondering our whole friendship.  These are sweet memories of my favorite times with you. hand massage At the meeting when I invited you to massage my hands, was it

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sex gratitude

Here’s a list of my sex gratitude. respect Thank you for caring about my well-being, pleasure, and safety.  Thank you for caring about my whole life including before you arrived on the scene, and if there’s time that I live without you.  Your responsible kindness–in bed and outside of bed–makes me want you.  I want

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why they broke up with you

Dear friend, this is why they broke up with you. scary That confidence that makes bosses promote you to supervisor is what makes you scary to argue with.  You hold beliefs with rigid certainty that crushes others.  Your confidence is lack of curiosity, which is chilling. Love means caring what the other person thinks and

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your room

I used to think of your room as a beautiful, almost magical place that smells so nice, and has those crystals by the door.  Just passing by, I was blissed.  The place where you rest, where you get vulnerable. Before you left for a trip, you would bring up that your room is available to

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