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sex in the morning: what I have

Before, I didn’t like having sex in the morning.  We had a policy–only after breakfast. Why did I dislike having sex first thing?  I found it disorienting.  Sex was a big deal–I wanted to be ready. Nowadays I like when sex can be a big deal, taking hours for the whole process, but it could

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the porn addict

red curry That night he told me he had a porn addiction, we were at the Thai place by his apartment, and something in me constricted, grossed out.  Then about one second letter, I felt a rush of compassion.  I reached out to him with my arms.  I held him.  He was wearing that blue

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self-contained

having his dick inside me wouldn’t make me important to him. sometimes loving him feels like loving a pile of air. why do I need to matter to him anyway?  i could crown myself the beautiful, valuable  Treasure friend. I’m imagining the ceremony, marrying myself  in the courtyard, the yellow sundress I’d wear.   it

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free

I don’t think your feelings for anyone are wrong.  I never feel ashamed of you.  I think you can feel however you feel about anyone in the world.  You are free, and no one can own your heart.   Maybe behavior could be more of a thing to limit, if you choose to.  But you know,

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truck

what I wish he’d say   I’ll hop in my truck and drive to you, straight thru, without sleeping. when I get to your house, I’ll take a shower.  then you can look at my naked body, hold me for as long as you want, get comfortable with how I feel against you, how I smell and move,

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mine

The first time we ever had sex, eight years ago, he drove me up the nearby mountain.  We hiked up a trail, and went off trail, where we took off our clothes and lay down on them, making ourselves a forest bed.  I touched his body.  I rubbed his dick with my hand, and sucked

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why I’m jealous

usually she’s a blonde white lady i love then hate with value i could never attain life i tiny bit wanted luxury of having children owning a house able to work a job  it’s more about resources than sex enraged you made sure she got in the front door but didn’t do that for me

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quick apology

“Sorry about your balls,” I said.  “I’ll make it up to them later.”