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restlessness, a longing undefined

For so long, I’ve been getting restless, from time to time.  I had an okcupid profile and would look at matches and potential friends. Maybe it could be timed with when I ovulated, this feeling that I need to look for something different, new experiences.  What’s out there?  Could it be fun? A longing undefined. 

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performing care for blowjobs

pesto love “Can you smell the pesto on my breath?” I asked–I’d just come to bed, waking him. “Yes,” he said.  We were both mostly naked and cuddly. “Does is smell good?” I asked. “Yes,” he said. “Are you jealous that I fell in love with pesto?” I asked. “No, it’s ok,” he said. “Well,

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the kind of witch I am

“Hey, do you know what turns me on lately?” I asked. “What?” he asked. “Getting your semen in my hair,” I said. “Really?” “Yeah!” “We can do that!” “Yeah?  Did you like it, when I was cuddling on your dick after you came, and your semen was getting in my hair, earlier?” “Yeah!  I loved

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my first girlfriend

My first girlfriend.  Hmm, I was young, as was she–I was 16, when we met.  We kissed, made out, talked, wrote poems for one another. The bruises all over my body were evidence that she was not good at respecting boundaries.  She wanted the attention, my squeal of pain–she cared more about getting a big

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sex inner work

There’s what we were doing in real life–touching, kissing, I sucked his dick, I climbed onto him and slipped his dick into my cunt, and he grabbed me and moved me up and down on his dick until he ejaculated into me.  I masturbated as he touched my nipples.  I felt intense pleasure but didn’t

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how I feel about erections

We were having sex.  He was standing by the bed, naked.  I was lying in the bed, mostly naked. His erection was beautiful.  I touched his round tummy, his gorgeous arms, his pretty chest.  His nipples, his balls, his dick.  It was sticking out.  I felt the softness of his balls, and the ridges of

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what covid does to love

Sex is good for me, so good, to move toward pleasure and connection.  It’s healed me, taught me about trust, given me reasons to live.  Thank you to my sweet spouse for giving me so much sexual joy, these past many years.  Covid is a stressor, and I’m learning about covid love. steam valves Is

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my porn journey

From believing porn was bad, to considering making porn for money, my first encounters with porn, and what I think of it now–I’ve been on a journey that has taken me to some strange places.  Actual experiences, dreams, and fantasies have fueled my sexual imagination, but porn has too. early I hadn’t made up my

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mammal love

Sex is sometimes like another world to enter, and a door I often enter through is mammal love, a certain memory… actual memory I was with my spouse, at the beginning of our relationship.  We went to visit one of my best friends and her two kids, in a nearby town.  I wanted everyone to

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my first orgasm

In this post, I talk about my first orgasm.  It’s vulnerable and tender to reveal. What if you get aroused, reading it?  That’s ok.  I’m allowed to talk about my own past, and you’re allowed to have a reaction. If you beat off, imagining me having my first orgasm, good for you.  I might beat

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