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hair

“Wait a second,” my spouse said.  We were naked in bed.  “I have a hair caught.” He reached down to his package to move around some bodily materials. “You have a pubic hair stuck in a crease of your parts?” I asked. “Yeah,” he said.  “It’s better now.” pet “Your bush is huge right now!”

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what I learned

I was looking through my old journal as I got ready to transition to a new journal.  I found this list of reasons not to be close to the man I loved.  Amazing, what I’ve learned.  “Wait, when did I write this?” I wondered. The part that surprised me the most was the quiet “he

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art theory

fat sex

I saw this meme and loved it.  Fat sex is my life.  Disabled sex is my life also.  I might be too fat to sit on anyone’s lap like this.  But I relate to the lovers on the couch. Many people like to see themselves accurately portrayed in art and media, and I imagine how

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being vulnerable

I like being vulnerable.  It’s my favorite thing to do.  Being vulnerable to people who don’t want that is no good.  But being vulnerable with people who want that from me and will be vulnerable in response–that’s what I live for. It’s why I write, why I love, and my whole deal.  Activism, ritual, support

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rich friend

Did you ever have a rich friend who gave you money?  This happened to me.  I had a good friend who I fell in love with–she inherited a fortune out of the blue.  We had a friendship for some years.  She was brilliant, creative, beautiful–a small queer woman, fierce and challenging. We’re not friends anymore

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art theory

dream of the fisherman’s wife

This image, Dream of the Fisherman’s Wife by Hokusai, makes me think of a man I loved long ago.  Somehow I mentioned to him I like pictures of an octopus doing it with a person. Who wouldn’t think this was hot?  Am I a pervert?  Well, if so, yes.  I will be a pervert. This

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art review theory

sex graffiti

I was taking a morning walk with my spouse and saw some sex graffiti.  I felt excited because I love street art, and it’s somewhat lacking in our neighborhood. This art seemed childish.  I laughed and showed my spouse.  “Look at the scissor dick,” I said. If you’re not sure that’s a dick, there’s a

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shirt

“Don’t get cum on my shirt,” I said.  “I just put it on.  Is your dick dribbling?” He was naked after we had sex, and I suspected his dick was leaking a few last drops of semen. I remember when I was a teenager, coming home from being out, checking for cum on my clothing. 

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wishing

This morning I had a headache and was hearing voices more than usual.  I was lying in bed, and I felt like I could sleep.  So I put on my cpap mask and turned onto my side, feeling cozy.  Then my mind did something I need it to stop doing.  I thought of the man

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smut theory

what can get me off

Some examples of what can get me off–hmm, it’s embarrassing.  But here I am to do the good work of truth.  Vulnerability is my extra middle name. I wanted to talk more about what makes me horny, after that bingo card post.  Those things were pre-bed–this is more what can get me off when sex

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