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when Michael dies

This poem “when Michael dies” is about my close friend who I never met in person yet.  I ask for her post-husband visit so we can be animals together, and I would like to comfort her in her grief. when Michael dies When Michael dies, freedom will fly into your life like a wild wind,

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bitch

This poem “bitch” is the artifact of intense longing.  Much reverence to the feelers of big feelings, truth tellers, and kinkster sexonauts. bitch I wanted you to turn your vehicle around,  take me to the forest, pin me down on the earth, and see how many times you could make me cum. on the dirt

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safety into me

I wanted you to fuck the safety into me. I wanted your hands on me for a much longer time. I wanted to matter to your body. I wanted your unique intelligence up in my unique intelligence. I wanted to see how being close to you would change me. I wanted someone to collaborate with

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the altar

When I soaked black lentils on the counter at the same time you marinated tempeh on the counter, I pretended you were my friend. I hope your meal was as delicious as mine. I dodged you in the kitchen as well as I could, no longer crying about your leaving. I’d memorized your departure date,

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sapphire

I wrote this poem “sapphire” about choosing to live by making a promise about what to prioritize, saying no to love that would destroy me.  I choose to survive. sapphire I got your message that you’re sober and back in Ohio with your family. I wanted to be your family. You lied to me. You

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craziness and consent

This poem “craziness and consent” is mostly about disability and family pain. craziness and consent does consent count how crazy is too crazy when I’m in another mood altered state another world unshared reality   my spouse tried to do it with me he takes no for an answer and never shamed me for anything

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dirty limerick

I heard a dirty limerick on a Parliament-Funkadelic recording.  Can I tell it to you? There once was a man in Peru who was dozing in his canoe. He started thinking of Venus and pulled out his penis: woke up with a hand full of goo. I’m not sure I have that quite right, but

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reasons I’m saying no

I can only be close to people who like to communicate. I can’t afford to be abused. I’m crazy disabled and need my resources for myself. my mom didn’t form my body in her body to be harmed. my mom told me to get the fuck away from him. my body isn’t his to use.

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offering

the second time I was invited to bed with you, beautiful sacred man I believed was God visiting to bless my body, I would have touched your hips, peeling down the band of your chonies to know the bony articulating handholds and memorize them. I would have sniffed your chest and pet slower the brown

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addict

he’s the kind of guy who takes a bunch of naked pictures interspersed with not-naked pictures  and wants to show you not-naked pictures, but you accidentally see some unexpected dick. he’s the kind of guy who reads difficult books because his head craves exciting brilliant difference. he’s the kind of guy who needs to sedate

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