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to come

“I want you to come,” my spouse said.  We were in bed, naked and cuddly  It was post-lunch, and I’d just asked him what he wanted. “You don’t come as much anymore,” he added. “That’s true,” I said.  I pondered my stress level, privacy, hormone changes, grief, energy level, vulnerability, desire.  “But there are things

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why I like subbing

Hello, I wanted to explain more why I like subbing.  This pic of a sub is so beautiful too–I’ve been wanting to use it for something.  Please enjoy this listicle. pleasure of subspace Subspace can be addictive.  “Please tell me I’m a good slut,” I request of my spouse.  He tells me I’m a good

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breast play

“There’s something I’d like sexually,” I told my spouse, thinking of breast play.  We were lying in bed, doing post-lunch, cuddly and close.  “Can I tell you about it?” “Yes, please,” my spouse said. “Well I was thinking maybe tomorrow…  If you would touch, lick, suck on, and play with my breasts.  Breast play for

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summer art school

Summer art school was a great learning experience.  I had a lot of firsts there, and I want to tell you. Queer stuff, sexuality, law breaking, silliness.  I was 16 years old, curious, and wild.  Here are ten things I did for the first time at summer art school. 1. smoking Smoking tobacco cigarettes was

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abuse

Abuse can be a train wreck, or subtle, long term harm.  Deep in a relationship, it can be hard to have perspective. What’s healthy?  What do I deserve?  What’s happy?  Is life really supposed to be like this? Wow, I was out to sea so long.  I forgot what happy could look like.  I thought

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