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avoidant sex

Before this lover I recently lost, I’m not sure I ever had avoidant sex as an adult. Definitely when I was a teenager, a series of white boys preyed on me– they were avoidant if anything. They wanted sexual pleasure then an easy exit, not to build actual relationships of balanced care. This recently lost

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how I like to be hit

How I like to be hit has changed over the years. My spouse and I are coming together with renewed interest and love, after I broke up with my brilliant young lover who I had been spending significant time with. It’s a huge life change to refocus on my spouse as the person I most

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more trans sex

I want more trans sex, which is strange because I think of myself as demisexual. My sexual desires arrive after I know someone and love them. Once I feel safe my cunt perks up, and I get very loyal and attached. Sexual desire doesn’t lead. But here I am, sifting into my being the trans

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smut theory

trans sex

I’ve had a ton of queer sex, including intense gender-y experiences.  I remember the first time I ever went down on my spouse’s ass and all I learned doing that: so tender.  I felt like a gay man, which isn’t what I expected.  But recently I had very trans sex for the first time, and

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