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unsent letter

generous

My heart was broken again.  I wanted to ask you what’s not good enough about me.  What are you looking for?  Am I too kind, or am I too generous? The first time I touched you, I felt your remarkable open heart.  That instant feeling of cozy safety had never happened to me before.  My

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theory

what she gave me

I went to pho with my dear friend.  We were sitting outside, eating delicious soup.  My friend gave me their basil; I gave them my cilantro.  Probably that’s love, that considerate sharing of resources. I thought of my not-quite-ex, the one I loved before, and what she gave me: my recent situationship.  She was the

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smut theory

long orgasm

I have a new sound recording up.  I was masturbating as my spouse went down on my breasts–it’s nine minutes.  My long orgasm is strange and good. https://freesound.org/people/nestvalorfixer/sounds/751155/ I listened to the recording this afternoon while I was masturbating in bed alone.  I hadn’t heard it in a while.  The recording kept me company and

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theory

rage orgasm

I had a rage orgasm.  It was surprising and almost scared me. Emotionally I’m going through a time of change.  I’m making new choices including saying no to unbalanced, destructive relationships.  Feels great to raise my standards and work on believing I deserve more. content warning: brief mention of sexual violation Family pain and trauma

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