Lately I use a vibrator to masturbate, and that can get me off. It’s better than nothing! But I don’t like how it feels to cum on a vibrator, compared to other orgasm methods. Cumming on a vibrator is the lowest quality orgasm I’ve experienced.
why
Vibrators are overstimulating. There is no subtlety. The sensation is so intense that it temporarily deadens my clit-nerves, even the lowest setting.
Right now I use a vibrator that cost about a hundred dollars and has many settings. It’s rechargeable and long. I like that my vibrator is long because that makes it easier to use. I’m disabled and have chronic pain. My muscles hurt, and my joints are hypermobile. My joints sometimes feel like they’re going to pop out of place.
I can’t use my right hand to masturbate because of a pinched nerve–my right hand lost functionality about 12 years ago. Reaching my vulva with my left hand can be difficult, and maintaining any motion for more than a few minutes hurts.
technology
The vibrator is a way to let technology do part of the work. I don’t hurt my hand and arm from rubbing myself.
The release of orgasm can help me feel more relaxed, relieved. But I’m capable of orgasms that are extraordinarily pleasurable. A vibrator orgasm is like a 3 out of 10. It’s more for the release than the experience. I’m capable of 10 out of 10.
explaining the overstimulating
When my vibrator is on my clit, it feels good but also too much. There’s pleasure, but the overstimulation is numbing. I get somewhat dissociated, with the vibrator.
If I decide to switch to masturbating by hand after using the vibrator, that doesn’t work because my clit has already been pummeled. It has lost sensitivity; I can’t feel the touch right.
I can cum on the vibrator, but it takes a while to get there. Finally cumming on the vibrator is too much sensation. I’ll feel myself about to cum. But there’s no way to instantly turn the vibrator down. So I’m in a weird situation of wanting the vibrator on my clit to cum on, but the sensation is too much. There is no right thing to do.
If I leave the vibrator on my clit, it’s way too much sensation at a transcendent time. But if I take it off, that feels wrong in the opposite way. My cunt feels abandoned and sad.
I try to put my hand there right when I’m going to cum, but I can’t really feel it. There’s some amount of pleasure, but nothing like an orgasm by hand.
other orgasms
I like to cum on my spouse’s tongue or dick. That’s pretty rare. I usually cum on my own fingers. Sometimes I cum on his fingers.
I would like to build my resiliency and work on my health so I can reduce my overall pain and increase my stamina. Then I can masturbate better and cum in the best ways.
Already I give so much time to caring for my health. Is it possible, for me to improve my arm functionality and cum better? I want to believe.
