I recorded impact sounds and thought you might enjoy hearing them. My spouse was hitting me on the ass, and I had emotional vocal responses.
It’s been a stressful time. I need pleasure, to relax and lose myself. We hadn’t recorded anything in a year or so. But we were house sitting and had the delicious opportunity to make noise.
Beforehand I set some parameters–I asked for three minutes. I asked him to start gentle. Wow, it was amazing. I was very aroused and happy. I felt loved by my spouse’s hitting hand.
first
This is the first impact sounds recording.
https://freesound.org/people/nestvalorfixer/sounds/695624/
I was lying facedown on the bed. He was kneeling by the bed, hitting me with his bare hand.
We had already been doing this for a while, by the time I asked to record. I like the way I’m chill at the beginning then sort of lose it. He hits me harder and harder, almost as much as I can take. He finds that edge, which I appreciate. Yes, he’s an attentive, skilled top.
I was afraid my ass would be in so much pain afterward, I would have trouble sitting. But this morning my ass is resilient and fine.
second
This is the second impact sounds recording.
https://freesound.org/people/nestvalorfixer/sounds/695625/
Beforehand we talked about consent-non-consent–I asked for it. I warned him that I might say “no” and he was to keep hitting me unless I used our safeword.
But in the moment, I realized I wasn’t ready for consent-non-consent. I wasn’t in a good place emotionally for that wild work of play-violation. So I squirmed a bit and didn’t need the safeword.
Now I realize that consent-non-consent might be too much for the sound site that’s hosting the sounds. So I’m glad I didn’t begin that type of play.
what I think
Sounds pretty. I feel aroused hearing it. What do you think, reader? Listening to it again makes me want more.
I was blissed out afterward–I felt like my ass was glowing with warmth and light. The pain-pleasure overwhelm is so nice, in contrast to the anxiety-overwhelm that’s become my norm lately, unfortunately. The pain pushed everything else out.
Finding the animal is such a relief. My cries are language-free, from deep inside me. I don’t need to be logical or explain anything. I hope you enjoy that part.
Thank you to my spouse for being willing to hurt me how I want it and collaborate on a scene I need. Thank you for beating me into the grounded, tender person I want to be.
