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tits

I grew these tits, without my permission really.  These days, I welcome them.  I like touching them, and they comfort me as well as my spouse.  When I hug a friend, maybe they comfort my friend also. My tits are warm, pretty, somewhat symmetrical, large, round, droopy, sensitive, and fine by me.  Two burdens I

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review theory

sex party

I went to my first bdsm sex party.  I went there to learn, and I did learn–more than I expected, about myself and others.  While I was there and for a day or so afterward, I felt very positive about the experience.  I was elated.  As the days pass, I feel less positive and less

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smut theory

breast massage

“Thank you for that breast massage with your dick,” I said to my spouse. “Sure!” he said. We’d just shared delicious sex.  I was lying in bed as he moved about the bedroom. “It felt good for my health,” I added.  “So many ways to care for my health…” coconut oil My spouse is having

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theory

loyal

In which I realize my body is loyal, and I thank my body. I was crying with thwarted desire for a person who does not love me.  Which crying time am I talking about?  The night before they left town?  A random morning when I felt lonely?  The afternoon we had that positive interaction? positive

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theory

socialize

“I wanted to take care of some things, so I could then socialize with my clothes off,” my spouse said. “Wow, sounds fun,” I told my spouse.  “I want to socialize with my clothes off too!” We laughed.  Later he did take his clothes off.  I did too, and we socialized very sweetly. cuddle I

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unsent letter

your room

I used to think of your room as a beautiful, almost magical place that smells so nice, and has those crystals by the door.  Just passing by, I was blissed.  The place where you rest, where you get vulnerable. Before you left for a trip, you would bring up that your room is available to

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closer

“Wow, I lost my voice, singing in the car.  I didn’t think I was singing that loud,” I told my cherished housemate friend.  My voice was raspy.  We were at the dining room table, co-working, closer than we had been. “What were you singing?” they asked. I pondered that playlist.  There were so many songs

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list poem unsent letter

safety into me

I wanted you to fuck the safety into me. I wanted your hands on me for a much longer time. I wanted to matter to your body. I wanted your unique intelligence up in my unique intelligence. I wanted to see how being close to you would change me. I wanted someone to collaborate with

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theory

girlfriend

“I don’t want to be anyone’s girlfriend,” she said. That was disappointing to hear because I wanted to hold this dear friend, cuddle her, kiss her, possibly have sex with her, and be close to her in a significant way.  I wanted to be sweetly interdependent for a long time. So I was like–oh well. 

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