recording myself masturbating

I was lying in bed after a shower–it was a dark, rainy morning, and my spouse was out.  I was pleasurably clean and vaguely horny, so I decided to practice sexual self-care; the happy chemicals might help me.  I’d been thinking of recording myself masturbating for some time.  So I turned off the fan and began.

First I arranged the pillows to support my left arm and shoulder.  I touched my nipples and thought of love.  Then I dipped the middle finger of my left hand into some coconut oil I keep by my bedside for such purposes.

Slipping my fingers into my cunt was like sliding into a good dream.  Ah, my clit was so plump and curious, and it was a joy to feel myself there.  The pleasure was building already.

To record myself masturbating I used my phone, and that was distracting, to wonder if the sounds were being picked up by the cheap mic.  But it was for science, and I could always do another recording later, if this one was not good.

what I think about

Usually my fantasies are detailed and can be elaborate.  I enjoy having multiple fantasies I switch among while masturbating, which is nice, like three or four fantasies I’m thinking about, returning to one or another, cycling through.

Or sometimes I think of one scenario for the whole time, then suddenly switch at the end when I’m about to come, to a different scenario.  That can be fun–something steady to get me almost there, and then I totally redirect myself for the orgasm part.

This was just more than four minutes of steady masturbating, and then I came, which took about one minute.  The sounds are breathing, squishy wet rubbing sounds, some unidentified shifting in bed sounds, and then quietly emoting when I come.

listening

After I recorded myself masturbating, I rested, then listened to the recording.  Yes, with the sound up loud enough, I can hear the squishy sounds of my finger rubbing my wet vulva.  Maybe next time I’ll move the mic closer to my cunt.

I try to be as quiet as possible, for privacy, as we live with people.  Because it was raining, the community members were probably not sitting outside my bedroom window smoking cigarettes–probably they were snug in their beds.  But I’m respectfully quiet by default.  I don’t want to make the people we live with uncomfortable or cause a riot.

I cut a few seconds of fumbling at the end, and listened to the recording a second time.  Felt validating–I really liked it.  Felt brave, vulnerable, empowering.

We all learn differently, and have different preference for senses.  So if you’re an audio learner, it could be fun to hear.  If you’re more visual, maybe it would be just boring to you.  Sound has been the thing in porn I tend to like the most.  So if you’re like me, you might get off on it.

what I learned

I learned that I come for a long time.  Of course I’m incapacitated while having an orgasm and had no idea how long mine lasted.  I would have guessed more like half a minute.

On this recording I come around 4:20–a huge wave of pleasure hits me, and my cunt is squeezing over and over again, as I try to stay quiet.

Then around 4:43 another wave hits, so I think it was a two-part orgasm, which is common for me.  I pause then rub a little more, to get the second part.  Then I’m done coming around 5:20.  Then there are ten seconds of recovery before the recording ends.

How long do you come?  Does that sound similar to your experience?  Hmm, I guess a minute is not so rare, according to some brief googling.

multiple

As for second, third, and fourth orgasms, they’re shorter and usually more intense–almost sharp, and just a few seconds.  But it’s been a while since I was horny enough to go for multiple.

One long orgasm is usually really good for me, considering my disabilities and frequency of sex.  If I was going a week between orgasms, I might want to go for multiple more often, but I don’t see a need.

Recording myself masturbating was worthwhile, and I’d like to do it again soon.  Maybe away on a trip with more privacy, I could try again, emoting more expressively.

I tried to upload the sound file for you, but my interface said no.  I’ll find somewhere to upload it and post a link for you next time.  Love to your learning and changing.