threesome

I’m so excited I had an essay published in BiWomen Quarterly.  Last time, they published a poem I wrote called “how I find it.”  This essay is called “Threesome” and is vulnerable.

I talk about wanting a threesome over the years, attempts at forming a larger family, and how all that feels.  I mention heartbreak, fear, taking chances.  Please read it over there.

https://www.biwomenquarterly.com/threesome

This is a part I love.  “Maybe my spouse really is once in a lifetime – someone who walks their talk. Or maybe someone else who could fit into this family will come along, when we least expect them. Two people seems unsteady, like a chair that needs to be balanced just so.

I keep looking for sweet, trustworthy family love in the world, and people can be bewildered, when I seek that. So, this essay comes back to family, not only sex. I want to care and be cared for by multiple people, in many ways. That feels like the point of life, for me. Everything else is just messing around.”

Another part I really like: “I experience sex as an intense, vulnerable ritual that creates veil-rending pleasure. I see God in the beautiful sensations and union.”

I wrote it the night of the deadline–I’d been thinking about it and finally, last minute.  So there are a few things I would have done differently, if I’d had time to tinker.  But the truth is there.

Thank you for caring about my honesty, my storytelling, my life.