Somebody friended me on instagram, and I don’t know her. I looked through the friends she follows. I saw a porn star I know of, on the list. Then as I continued, I saw another inhabitant of porn star world who I know well and avoid like the plague. He hurt me really bad, and
Month: November 2020
singing your name
dear Friend, sometimes I’ll be lying in bed, sleepy. I’m naked and safe, holding myself to myself. my heart is with you, though you’re far away. every cell in my body starts singing your name. my cells are humming at a frequency that’s for you. I don’t know if you can hear them. you keep
what is sexual attraction
I was at this sex event, and someone mentioned she’s demisexual. I was like–what’s demisexual. Some idea I had was that demisexual is a type of asexuality. Someone else asked. The demisexual woman explained–it means you’re only sexually attracted to people who you know well. I was amazed that this was a special thing, to
quality of orgasms
Hey, I was thinking about quality of orgasms. I was thinking how orgasms can feel different ways. I think I’ve only come from my clit. Some vaginal, g-spot deeper orgasms I heard of, but I don’t think I ever experienced one. I want to try having a nipple orgasm–that hasn’t happened yet. Some amazing sensations
phone cuddle
I made a meme about phone cuddle. I’ve been thinking about phone cuddle for a long time. The above meme was partly inspired by this simple meme I saw on a friend’s facebook. I need a lot of options. Phone sex, phone cuddle, letter sex, email cuddle, flirtation. Chosen family, moving fast or slow, intentional
hard no
dear Asshole Who Inspires a Hard No, You wouldn’t talk to me about difficult things when I loved you and we were close. So why do you want to talk now? Now you push me, trying to force me to engage you. It’s one more violence to the list of violences you’ve done while pretending
Dicks have always seemed weirdly vulnerable to me. Balls too. How could it make sense, to have something so important hanging out so awkwardly. A dick undeniably there, and balls, so tender. I heard balls need to keep cool, for sperm to be viable. So, uh, I guess so. It’s weird because dicks can do
stalking content warning: trauma, stalking, emotional harm from a former partner, mention of rapist I was looking at old photos and saw a pic of me and my most recent ex. When I broke up with him, he harassed me, then briefly stalked me. I’d definitely been harassed before, but it was my first time
cunt magic
A cunt is an amazing organ. I love cunt magic. I was taught mine was shameful–that cunts are an obscene embarrassment. But then I grew up and could make choices about my own body and change how I feel about it. envaginate I’ve been thinking about that word envaginate for a long time. As in,
Sex toys are not sex. They’re physical objects that can facilitate sexual experiences, please, stimulate, stoke the imagination. They can also harm. Often they’re purchased, but I made a dildo out of wood, which is cool. vibrators Those big Magic Wand ones you plug into the wall–I had one long ago, used it only once.