My heart was broken again. I wanted to ask you what’s not good enough about me. What are you looking for? Am I too kind, or am I too generous? The first time I touched you, I felt your remarkable open heart. That instant feeling of cozy safety had never happened to me before. My
I went to pho with my dear friend. We were sitting outside, eating delicious soup. My friend gave me their basil; I gave them my cilantro. Probably that’s love, that considerate sharing of resources. I thought of my not-quite-ex, the one I loved before, and what she gave me: my recent situationship. She was the
I have a new sound recording up. I was masturbating as my spouse went down on my breasts–it’s nine minutes. My long orgasm is strange and good. https://freesound.org/people/nestvalorfixer/sounds/751155/ I listened to the recording this afternoon while I was masturbating in bed alone. I hadn’t heard it in a while. The recording kept me company and
I had a rage orgasm. It was surprising and almost scared me. Emotionally I’m going through a time of change. I’m making new choices including saying no to unbalanced, destructive relationships. Feels great to raise my standards and work on believing I deserve more. content warning: brief mention of sexual violation Family pain and trauma
Dear friend, I was thinking about something you mentioned regretting. I’m sorry it hurts to hurt another person. I wanted to tell you: the erotic is fueled by the tension between what’s real and what’s not real. The tension creates an energy. It’s ok to be wrong during sex, as long as it’s consensual. Exploring
“You’re happy just getting your dick sucked,” I told my spouse. “I want sex that’s way more kinky.” “What do you want?” he asked. “I’ll do something more kinky.” desires Lately I have some specific kink desires but haven’t communicated them to my spouse. An easy desire is to move wedges and pillows toward the
Dear friend, I worried about you, when you were headed to another state to do direct action and risk arrest. Partly I’m worried because you’ve never been arrested. I’m proud of you for wanting to make a better world. But I know that in direct actions, there’s risk with police violence. Things happen unexpectedly. There
My spouse and I went to a hot springs, and it was my first time in a clothing optional space. Well, the sex parties we enjoy are clothing optional. But this was more nudity and felt different. Strangely, it felt sexier at the hot springs than the sex parties.–at least our first visit on a
Dear friend, I was thinking of that funny moment when I mentioned how in a previous community, my spouse had a reputation for undressing lickety split. Yes, at the moment of taking off clothes, he had it down to just a few seconds. You seemed surprised. You don’t know the whole story: a personal growth
I have four things I love to be hit with. These are my beloved impact implements. my spouse’s hands the flogger my spouse made of black parachute cord a colorful wooden spatula a shortened yardstick Yes, such good things. thuddy vs stingy I like a mix of thud and sting. My spouse’s hand is my