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rigid

“All those things I said we could do–we don’t need to do any of them.  The time I said–we could do different times also.  Those were just ideas.  We don’t need to be rigid.” I told all that to my spouse–we were lying in bed, early morning.  I was comforting him, that our day could

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not today

Hey, how are you doing?  I share this meme as something funny and too accurate.  “Not today, satan” is countered with “What about tonight?” I’ve had some dates with satan.  Or devilish folx, if not the Lucifer himself!  Yes, he can be persistent.  If abusers gave up easily, wouldn’t that be easier. trust My first

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smut

my friend

I have this fantasy, vivid and detailed.  My friend who broke up with her husband last year was coming to town to visit family–she called me up to ask if she could have sex with my spouse. She didn’t seem that nervous to ask–it was matter-of-fact.  She told me she hadn’t been with anyone since

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smut theory

masturbation session

I had not come in a week.  That was unusual.  I was lying in bed, clean from a shower, naked.  My spouse was out, and I was lying on my back with my legs spread open.  I thought about masturbating.  Yes, a masturbation session sounded perfect. We had sex the day before, but neither came. 

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customer service

This meme about customer service depicts someone doing sex work.  But it reminds me of how working retail felt for me.  I stroked the egos of a bunch of nasty white guys who were customers, while dodging the harm of coworkers who all had their own agendas and assnesses also.  I had to be reliably

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unsent letter

the real you

I always felt like the real you was deep inside you, so precious and beautiful and good.  I believed in that one. But I think I was mostly making that you up.  Maybe there are many of you.  That’s what you told me.  But I don’t want to talk to this one, in these three

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theory

list

We’d had a lot of conflict–the conflict was partly about language.  It definitely was conveyed in language.  I was almost out of energy, nearing the end of my day, and wanted to figure out what was best for my spouse, so I made a list. “Ok, can I tell you some ideas I have, for

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review theory

queer art

I love this queer art by the_papa_artist.  Please visit and support https://www.instagram.com/the_papa_artist/.  This queer art feels so luxurious and empowering.  Sensual and realistic. First I loved this one, Respect Sex Workers. View this post on Instagram A post shared by PAPA artist AKA Betty Rose (@the_papa_artist) The pinks, the feelings, the tarot cardness, the art

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ritual smut

dick prayer

“Can I pray for your tummy?” I asked.  He was standing by the bed, naked.  I was stroking his tummy, appreciating it. “Yes,” he said.  His eyes were closed, and he looked so beautiful. tummy prayer “Mother God, please bless the tum of my love.  Please bless all the organs of his tummy to do

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theory unsent letter

chickens

I don’t think I ever told you, my spouse, or anyone that where you live is part of what I loved about you.  Background that never gets mentioned but sets the scene for everything.  I’m crying tonight about the feral chickens I’m not going to see, the lush plants you’ll never teach me, the walks

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