I have a pocket of feelings I don’t enjoy. I visit them in an addictive way. Usually I skim the surface, but today my spouse was pulling cash from an ATM, and I was sitting alone in the car. I started talking to myself, or talking to the one I love who I should not
One of my favorite groups on a social media site is about lesbian sex. I’m fascinated by lesbians. I’ve never fully been a lesbian, but I’ve considered at different parts of my life– am I a lesbian? Whatever I am, I enjoy giving lesbian sex tips to strangers. A lady was feeling guilty for not
My addictions are mine and comfortable. I wish I didn’t have them, but they’re part of me. They’re like my disabilities– I know what to do. My addictions are like soft, frayed blankets, easy to fall into. I’m not proud of them, but I’m used to them. I know how they smell. my addictions Long
This Solstice letter is an unsent letter to someone I’m estranged from. Dear one, This letter is emotional but chill and respectful, as far as I perceive. Thank you if it’s something you want to let in. I thought about you on Solstice when I was preparing to go to the land, and walking by
I love someone, and we have chemistry. But if there’s anything I’ve learned this past year, it’s that I need to be particular. My life is derailed if I have sex with someone who’s not consistent and emotionally available. So I’ve been thinking about how not to have sex with someone– ideas for a more
“Will you look inside my cunt?” I asked. “What do you see?” My spouse slightly spread my labia. I was lying naked in bed after a shower. We were at the beginning part of sex. “What do you see in there?” I asked. “I see beauty,” they answered. That is very sweet, but not the
“I think you fixed my pH,” I said. “Thank you for the semen cure. Or your balls are a lil yeasty and slapped yeast in there, overwhelming the bacteria.” My spouse laughed. They were about to leave on a sacred errand, moving through our small home getting ready to go out. I was still lying
This post even closer is about a cover by the band In This Moment. Yes, I have a thing for the classic kink song “Closer” by Nine Inch Nails. In This Moment does it kinda roaring / screamy. Could I learn to do that with my voice? “With vocal training, you could probably do anything
I love betraying my family. Lately I betray them with my transness. Oh, so you think I’m a girl? Some people have known me since I was born, but they never knew me. In the past I’ve betrayed my family by… moving away divorcing my first husband, when they all did not divorce divorcing my
“Do you wanna shave me?” my spouse asked. “Yes,” I said. I had been saying no for a few days– felt good to agree. My spouse handed me the electric shaver. They grabbed my breasts and started to jiggle them, as I shaved their chin. “Be gentle, and get off the nipple,” I said. It’s